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Ashes..Ashes to ashes..
Dust to dust.
I licked your blood
it tastes like rust
It wasn't your face
It's the soul I lost
And day by day
Heart surrenders to frost
I'd burn the stars
whatever the cost
hold your tears in my hands
watch the memories tossed
darling this line
was already crossed
These ashes I hold..
of the one I lost..
All there isReach my thumb out into space
With a smile, erase your face
Running backwards in one place
Slower turtles win this race
Oh I'm fighting, I'm fighting
don't know why I'm trying
Was it even worth crying
When I knelt at love dying
Look up, see a falling star
With a frown begin this war
No I never ran this far
This is who we think we are
Oh I'm running, I'm running
This broken road stunning
My heart's rifle gunning
Watch the end coming
Staring straight down at the floor
Laughing bitter at the core
Stomping hearts a little more
Kicking souls right out the door
God I'm screaming, I'm Screaming
This nightmare worth dreaming
This world is now teeming
Embracing old demons
Look back at my history
All these fruitless memories
Museum exhibits of you and me
Is this all there is to see?
Is this really all there is?
Don't Remember..It's 5 AM
I hope I never sleep again
For in my dreams I see you
and in my nights I feel you
I never wanted it to be this way
I wanted you tomorrow like yesterday
But I never want to know you're crying
I hope you know I wasn't lying..
I said "I love you" it's a phrase that bonds
And though it felt so right, I felt so wrong
You deserve the kind that's beautiful
That lifts you up and brings you more
I couldn't possibly compare
To all the love that's out there somewhere
I couldn't give you what you need
When there's nothing left inside me see?
I did this all for you
cause if it was for me I'd stick like glue
and keep you by my side even if you didn't want to
That selfishness, I just couldn't do!
Not to you my darling..not to you
I wish you knew my darling..I wish you knew
All the things in this life I pray for you
You'll never know how much I love you
I know you feel betrayed..
I hope one day you can look back and say
without the anger to get in the way
"My life is better now than yesterda
Invaded Again..Invaded again.. during my time of peace.
Vertical flashing lights..
Teeth on a rare smile..
The shiver in your light embrace..
The wind on old metal..
My hair in my face..I could barely see you from the corner of my eye.
I smiled anyway..I was lost in nothing
It was my favorite time..my favorite place.
I have not been back since.
But you've invaded me again. Of course.
A friend told me. "You can walk over the mountain or go around, you can blast holes in it as much as you'd like. But in the end you know it will always be there. In the end it's a fool's game to fight it."
He is right..but so am I..
Cause I wouldn't dare admire it either.
It may always be there, but I can make it part of my blurry horizon if I travel far enough.
I gotta start walking..don't I?
And I will..in a little while I will.
Just allow me to revisit that sundown, to bask in silhouettes long past.
Until then..I'm grateful, beyond these cruel intrusions, that in the end..
..There is nothing no
Nine TimesI saw him nine times.
The first time we were both sitting in the room together, getting ready to take the math test that would determine our placement. I was scatterbrained and throwing things around, trying to find the pencils that I had known I would need but had still just tossed in my purse. He was lounging backwards in his chair, looking for all the world as though he didn’t have a single care in the world, including the upcoming test. It annoyed me, that I was frantic and ready to scream, while someone else could be that relaxed.
I tested out of the class.
I don’t know if he did.
The second time I saw him, it was a few months after I arrived on campus. He was the one rushing and frantic this time, running across the square. He was probably late for class, though I had no way of knowing for sure. I was already lost in my own thoughts and ideas, deciding on my major and convincing people that yes, this is what I really want to do with my life. If they weren
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